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Saturday, April 18, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Just Thinking...
So I was watching this show called Tru Calling. it's all about this girl who when she sees a dead body it asks for her help and the day restarts so she can save their lives.
Anyway, there was this episode where the day would keep restarting over and over, because there was one person she was supposed to save that she didn't. There was a little girl who needed a heart badly, and turns out after saving a store owner, a boy, the father of the sick girl, and again the father, she realizes that the father was supposed to die and give his heart to the little girl.
It made me think. A lot. About what I would give to save someone I loved. Truthfully, I would die to save them too. But I think the truest test of love is doing something you hate, really hate, to ensure that they benefit from it. I'm scared of going in the navy. I never really stick to anything I say I'll do and I hate having to do the same thing over and over, and with my siblings both reaching five or six years to graduate college I could do what I want and mooch off my parents and stay in school... but maybe, despite how hard the navy will be, and despite how it contradicts everything I really am, maybe enduring through it, just so there isn't more debt on mom... so there isn't another couple thousand that I'll beg off dad, maybe no matter if I'm scared of it, or nervous, or whether it might be the worst thing for me... it's the right choice.
I know there are a lot of benefits for me, but there are more just mooching off my parents and doing whatever I want.
So maybe I have grown up, even just a little. Just enough to realize that maybe to help the people I love, I will do what I fear, what I know will be hard, and what I may or may not want to do.
Just thoughts....
Sara
PS I fixed it so people without a blogspot ID can leave comments... Love you mom.
Anyway, there was this episode where the day would keep restarting over and over, because there was one person she was supposed to save that she didn't. There was a little girl who needed a heart badly, and turns out after saving a store owner, a boy, the father of the sick girl, and again the father, she realizes that the father was supposed to die and give his heart to the little girl.
It made me think. A lot. About what I would give to save someone I loved. Truthfully, I would die to save them too. But I think the truest test of love is doing something you hate, really hate, to ensure that they benefit from it. I'm scared of going in the navy. I never really stick to anything I say I'll do and I hate having to do the same thing over and over, and with my siblings both reaching five or six years to graduate college I could do what I want and mooch off my parents and stay in school... but maybe, despite how hard the navy will be, and despite how it contradicts everything I really am, maybe enduring through it, just so there isn't more debt on mom... so there isn't another couple thousand that I'll beg off dad, maybe no matter if I'm scared of it, or nervous, or whether it might be the worst thing for me... it's the right choice.
I know there are a lot of benefits for me, but there are more just mooching off my parents and doing whatever I want.
So maybe I have grown up, even just a little. Just enough to realize that maybe to help the people I love, I will do what I fear, what I know will be hard, and what I may or may not want to do.
Just thoughts....
Sara
PS I fixed it so people without a blogspot ID can leave comments... Love you mom.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
ok so updates....
well there really isn't much to update. I'm still trying to work out and eat right. The last couple days I haven't really been doing it though. It's just that I finally got the fable 2 game and xbox 360 console with my paycheck, and yes, I did pay my bills.... I just have to remember to mail them. That's what I did with my days off, and I go back into the fray bright and early tomorrow morning.
I miss you guys, you too DK (a friend who reads this blog... the only non family reader.)
I hope all is going well, but from talking to everyone it seems like it's been a bad start to the month, whether it was 3 year old Zen watching a murder (possibly) or the trouble with mom's divorce and house buying stuff.... I think we all need to remember that we WILL get through this period. Time is a strange beast. One day can seem like a lifetime (if you work at a zoo) and one day can seem like a drop in the bucket. Remember, it probably seems like a drop to mom when the trains were the hieght of technology.
I love you Joan. Remember that.
Love you Heather, Mom, and J-J (don't be mad about fable you'll be here soon!)
well there really isn't much to update. I'm still trying to work out and eat right. The last couple days I haven't really been doing it though. It's just that I finally got the fable 2 game and xbox 360 console with my paycheck, and yes, I did pay my bills.... I just have to remember to mail them. That's what I did with my days off, and I go back into the fray bright and early tomorrow morning.
I miss you guys, you too DK (a friend who reads this blog... the only non family reader.)
I hope all is going well, but from talking to everyone it seems like it's been a bad start to the month, whether it was 3 year old Zen watching a murder (possibly) or the trouble with mom's divorce and house buying stuff.... I think we all need to remember that we WILL get through this period. Time is a strange beast. One day can seem like a lifetime (if you work at a zoo) and one day can seem like a drop in the bucket. Remember, it probably seems like a drop to mom when the trains were the hieght of technology.
I love you Joan. Remember that.
Love you Heather, Mom, and J-J (don't be mad about fable you'll be here soon!)
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